THE UNTOLD TOUCH

Have you ever felt a relation which is too short to be kept and so intense to forgot...yes there is some relation which you cant define  not  because it is only complex but time will permit  you some of the beautiful moments to live for short time and yes there is some beautiful memories that bring a huge smile on your face, it is so pure that will touches your heart and soul.It will come to you at perfect time and perfect moments when you truly need it. How it impacted my life i  don't know but it's so beautiful that while writing it my fingers are not stopping for a while and my face is carrying a soft touch of happiness and mind has no greed of capturing that perfect thing.
i was smiling because after a prolonged pause our plan got the real existence out of our whats-app group. We are five in our group POO, CHIN, SAM, D and ME. We are the most fascinated group crazy for  travelling and cover the whole world with our short legs. We planned for  the top hills of India  and the most spiritual place in India(north) called the heaven because of the beauty of the nature. I heard from many people about the air of jammu and Kashmir

that there is something in that air which attracts not only people but nations and still war is going on to own this beautiful place and yes nothing to amaze because we human being are the most cumbersome species full of greed and mad for beauty. I rose their heart beat when i  boarded  the train 10 minutes before departure of the train from NDLS station. Saw my group with my excited eyes and beating heart holding all the new pictures which is going to become real once again with my small selfie addicted group.
POO came near to me and hugged me tightly, I was very happy  after meeting with my friends, everyone was giving me strange look, specially SAM and CHIN but D was still ignoring me, i think she was busy in some other world full of ignorance but yes it was all for me because in previous trip we had some small fight which we never figured them out.

I tried to tease her for being quiet and sad but she  didn't even look at me and changed her place. She is a short heighten girl having normal colour complexion, though she is from one of the famous state of  India which is reflected by her Bihari tone for which she is proud of, She is the second older family member among her 5 sibling.Few months ago her whole  family members was going through a great trauma which breaks everything in her family, her father was badly ill because of the infection of  the wound near the toe and it become so vulnerable  that weaken his body and reaches his brain and damages the nervous system, he lost his consciousness and control on his body and none of the  medicine was working on him, the whole family was fighting with it unitedly and defeated it, i cannot express the situation from which she had gone through. Every day and night was bringing a new problems in her life but they never lost their hope and now the situation is far better, her father  is  recovering and everything is getting back to normal. She had never shown her situation to anyone, i tried to be  with her during this time and called her daily to get the update but she got  irritated by my calls so she  started ignoring my call and  i was totally aware of her problem and annoying behavior. One day she  called me and  was crying because of the worst condition and not getting control over the problem they are facing, her father shifted to too many hospitals, the whole family was badly affected by every means, i was coming from my college and received the call, after listening her shivering, frightened and disturbed tone i planned to visit her but she stopped me and told me to wait for some time. She didn't called me after that day.
When i saw  her eyes it was little tired and hungry for some change which she haven't senses so long, i knew that she  was on this trip because she promised god that once her father will start recovering she will  come for thanksgiving to the supreme power whose  hope and trust exists all over the world and this time it is also present on those hills which was calling  us. I planned to enjoy and give best time to myself in understanding and solving some complicated questions meandering  all around my life specially for my sister who is also going through tough time.

When i saw her in the train i bounded one more  wish with my aim for this trip, to give her some best moments, so that she can feel better without expecting anything from anyone. We reached that place early in the morning and went to the  temple where we got hardly 1 minute for praying and tell him our whole wish, we came back, our stay was damn good  though little ups and downs are obvious in any  group but everything was amazing. We planned to  stay in one room though we booked for  two. POO and CHIN were settled on one bed and we three on another, though POO wants me  to sleep by her side but i ignored because CHIN was already there and he is little attracted towards her so i decided not  to disturb them and told D to clear space beside her and finally i slept beside her. It was 2 am in the night i was still looking at her face and wanted to touch her forehead gently and to make her feel more comfortable and loving after such a long and hard journey but i was afraid of people who will name this feeling something else but finally didn't care  for others and moved my palm gently on her forehead she was in deep sleep and dreaming, then i also went into deep sleep and when i woke up i hadn't found her on our billet she came back after brushing her teeth, i asked her for  her hand and hold it firmly with my heart and slept for some time. she was feeling strange and shy too,it was hardly 15 minutes after which i woke up and left the  cozy bed. I saw the wonderful smile and  unknown happiness on her face giving me satisfaction. I also brought a gift for her, it is basically a t shirt that i painted for her as a  birthday gift but feeling little awkward while giving her.

Then we moved according to our plan and while going that place we booked a cab which was 5 sitter and we all took our place, the journey was little long so everyone in the cab was sleeping, POO with CHIN, SAM with me in the front seat of the  cab and D in the back alone after playing lot of beautiful song in the speaker that i brought for making our journey full of memories. She teased  everyone with that speaker by playing next to our ears and after some time she again slept and her cap came in front of her head which cover her eyes and she was looking like a cute little child. In the beginning she was sleeping on the CHIN"S shoulder after sometime she slip behind CHIN and seat of the cab because he was busy in giving company to his friend cum attraction POO , i was smiling watching her sleeping like this and wanted to give her my shoulder. We reached  that cave and then returned back directly to the railway station. Our train was on the same day in the evening. We decide pizza as our dinner, i and D decided to go to domino  and bring the pizza for us. I was walking by her side holding her hand and taking care of her, we had wonderful time together for all those time and she confronted me and broke her silence and told me about all those tough time from which she had gone through,
while doing this her eyes was filled with tears but she handled it and  not let them roll on her cheeks.

we boarded the  train,our ticket was not confirmed it is in RAC so i insisted her to sit with me so that we can talk and i could give her some good moments. I settle down on our desired birth but POO wants to sit with me so  she  came and took the rest half  seat, i looked at D in anger and messaged  her to come and sit next to me, we start making different excuses to send POO because CHIN was also waiting  for her but she hadn't moved her ass an inch  so finally i decided to  take the other birth allotted to us, D came and  sit in front of me, i felt little good, we talked whole  night soon i found her eyes was filled with sleep and i felt like  i am forcing  her  to talk so i  got  up and taken other vacant place available on that train and slept comfortably.
We reached to Delhi in the morning 6 am, i was feeling sad because our trip was over but we had wonderful  memories with us. I came back to my friend's room and after such a hectic journey finally i slept for 5 hours continuously then i planned to  visit one of my friend live in Noida City Center and stayed there with my friend Tanmay. When i reached Noida i missed her once.
The next day D messaged me and we both planned to meet at logix , 5 pm in the evening,though it was my last day in Delhi, i reached at 4:30 pm and was waiting for her, we both planned for Kedarnath movie. She was near to me and we were enjoying the movie, while one of beautiful song was playing inside the theater NamoNamo Shankara, i hold her hand, she felt shy but she  allowed me to hold her hands and then we watched  the  whole movie and i captured her inside that song. Whenever i listened that song i felt her nearby me and i am taking care of her. After watching that movie we had our dinner together and every time i was keep telling her to freeze every moments so that it would never end but she smiled and told me to live every moment instead of counting.
After our dinner we both are standing outside the mall and ready  to bid bye to each other but i was still not ready to leave her like this, i wanted to spend some more time and asked her to stay with me the entire night, she felt different but she trusted me and was ready to be with me for the whole night though her roommate is  getting angry  on her for being so late, i felt very happy but soon i realized that  this  is not good for today and then we booked a cab. Now its time to go to  our own way , finally i hugged her tightly and kissed on her forehead and without looking back i sat inside the cab.
Cab took me directly to my room which is very far away from her hostel but our beautiful time still holding our feeling which makes us smile and feeling special for each other. I was very happy while  returning to my home after this journey because i lived it the way i wanted, holding life in every breathe and smile. Though we don't have any plan for next year but we certainly do because we are unstoppable.
And about D, she is one of the strongest girl who can handle any situation in her life, she  is  fast and so caring who will take care of her family, though she didn't need any care or help but every human being wanted to get loved, care and attention. So do i and you.

CHAPTER :- 14 ONE MORE STEP....

still she was waiting for the gift curiously, closed eyes and the delusive smile making me feel so different and lunatic. I held my breath and rush toward her once again, my eyes was more busy in watching her face and getting attracted toward her simplicity. All the Bollywood movies start roaming around my wits, and it is true that i was keep trying to ignore the Hollywood movies😃. And before she open her eyes i touched her warm and soft cheek with my lips,

while doing that i was totally out of this universe, my heart was totally controlling my brain and it was pumping like trillions litres of blood at a time. When i came back in the real world i opened my eyes and saw that she was amazed and nervous too and again looking out of the window and  when she was kept mum for more than five minutes i was started feeling very bad and felt very sorry for this.
After 10 minutes when she saw me in such a confused and guilt condition  she held my hand and told me " its ok Navin,don't feel bad about it, i know your love is pure and childish too". Still my head was full of different thoughts, i was feeling damn bad when i realised that what i have done. Then she came very near to me and kissed on my cheek and told me that i like you too and i never carry any debt. I felt better and felt relaxed because i didn't want to hurt her or loose this beautiful relation. Then we talked for the next couple of minutes and the pole star was smiling and bidding me goodbye with a spark on its face. When i checked my watch it was 4:30 in the morning and we are about to reach our destination.

Finally we got down at Bhubneswar bus stand. I requested her to go for a walk to explore the cold and moist weather and also to spent some more time with her that day. She agreed and we start walking toward ram mandir but the best part was  holding her hand and walking by her side which makes me feel so damn good and different. It was like completing one of the wish from my wish box. We both were talking, laughing and keep walking on that foggy filled road, suddenly i came across a tea stall, i brought two cups of tea and we had it together. Such an awesome feeling...
we had it together with an unknown feeling touching our heart and soothing to our eyes, the most wonderful feeling that giving rain to the thirsty barren piece of land looking for the way of survival.
With every sip of tea we looked at each other and smile, sometime it continues for a longer time and sometime it ends with an unknown expression coming out with deep breathe and inhaling the fresh air with new life and moments, it was just like living life in every moments. I was wondering of having some amazing and supernatural power to stop that every moments.
But the time was forcing its needle to swap the moments of being together to loneliness and finally her mobile phone rang and her boyfriend was coming to pick her up from bus stand, i felt bad not because her boyfriend was coming but about the unknown hatred that she was carrying inside her heart way long and still compelled to sit behind him on his bike, why she is so calm if she is able to bring calamity, why she was so damn sad if she can start her life anytime anywhere, why the boundation of the relations are so tight that it binds our tongue too to ask for the justice.

Finally we went back to the same place where the bus dropped us and within 10 minutes she got one more call from him about her current location, she told me to go to railway station because i was also getting late, my train was at 6 in the morning "janstabdi" though every train in India has a custom of getting late but this train is always on time, what a fucking coincidence and there is nothing to amaze, it always happens whenever you expect something good. i caught an auto for railway station but after few second i got down and told the auto driver that  i forgot my luggage at the bus stand and stand behind the car and was looking at her. A bike came with red in colour and a tall guy wearing a helmet came near to her and then she sat behind him on the bike and then she went with him. i was watching her till she disappear in the morning fog with that guy. I was feeling bad about the time when we chose our own way not because we want however life changes its colour but i forgotten that  i am already late for  the  train and  when i reached the railway  station i saw the cross sign on the last  bogie of my train bidding me good bye and its two red light giving me  wicked smile and teasing me. I was feeling bad because i missed my  train and happy because i was returning with tons of wonderful memories. I went to the enquiry office and asked for  some other train, they told me that there is one super fast train ready to depart from station  no 5, i ran with my bag and boarded the train without  any second thought and when i realised that i had done a huge mistake because i forget to withdraw money from ATM and  i was running out of money.

Suddenly i saw a man in black jacket who seems like a ghost to me on that day coming directly in my direction, he came very  near to me but didn't ask for ticket, i exhaled my discomfort with that mouth full of breathe and relaxed, then i took out my personal diary and newspaper. I spread the news paper on the floor and start  reading my personal diary. Like me some other people was also present with me at that time but the difference was they  had ticket but i didn't have any tickets not even general class ticket and i was in super-fast without money, wow what a surprise!! I was blaming myself for everything but whenever my mind try  to blame her equally my heart wins every time.
Suddenly i found him near to me checking the tickets, i closed my eyes and prayed to god "please help me god, i will never lie to anyone for next 1 month" He asked the ticket to the boy next to me, he took out his ticket and it  was in waiting list, then he asked for the second one, again it was waiting then he came to me and asked me "is your ticket under waiting list? I nodded my head in affirmation and he left me without  even looking at my ticket, oh god!!you really exist, thanks a trillion. i looked at everyone and without uttering any word and thanked them for helping me unknowingly.
Suddenly i found that  i was crossing the cuttack  station where she  live, I called her but the call didn't get connect and  it crossed like the time but left the beautiful memories.
I reached my home very late with my small backpack and a bag full of  memories that touches my heart and giving me amazing feeling.

CHAPTER-: 13 OH GOD SHE HAD LONG NAILS!!

She was surprised for some time and looking at me like i had done something for which she was waiting for long time. Her hair was floating all around her and the moonlight was covering other half part of her face it's like the whole frame was holding a beautiful story, she chuckled and asked me what is your age Navin, i was still in the same position and my leg was badly stuck in between the seat and was paining hard but i was in love which was controlling me and my pain but of course not for too long!! i told her  "ma'am that is second issue first of all please accept my proposal because its too hard to be in this position" , she laughed loudly and took the rose and helped me to get rid of that posture. I took a deep breath of relief, she was still smiling on me for the stupidity but was very happy that i had done this for her. For a moment i was also feeling that i am a jerk. she was watching the rose carefully and again started looking out of the window, i just pushed her back and peep out through the window and told ma'am there is nothing interesting  out there compare to this moment, so why were you ignoring me and looking out of the window? In reply to this she closed the window and then turned into my direction and then told me"bolo(say), i was shocked and suddenly a cold sweat drenched my body and felt like i had to pee. Then i looked her intense expression and again repeated the same line "ma'am I LOVE YOU".

"This is not possible Navin you know that, we have 8 years of age gap and you are still studying", i took deep breath and looked directly in her eyes. I know ma'am this is a huge problem but we would definitely make a way of out of it. But you haven't replied yet. She held my hand tightly and told me "i have a boyfriend and you know it very well but he had never done anything for me like the way you did, today i am in a great dilemma, i am going behind that guy not because i love him but just to prove myself that my choice is correct, i tried so hard to make everything alright but neither my life nor the person proving me right." "yes i love you too, your talk is mature and you understand me more than anyone else, i can't tell you how much you are important for me this time, you listened to me and always helped me to get rid of those feelings which always tries to bring me down but i too have my own limits, people will blame me for this". I felt very bad and start looking out of the window, then she looked at the window too and teased me by saying that" is there anything outside the window which is more attractive than me ?" I smiled and looked at her again, i felt very jealous for the person with whom she gonna spend rest of her life. She asked me" So sir may i allowed to open the window because we both are feeling hot", i repeated her sentence again"hot?" she gave me an angry look and told me hot means the temperature inside the bus.I smiled and pull the window glass aside.
I saw the pole star which was still gazing at us without twinkling and making that moment amazing. I looked at my mobile phone it was quarter past 3, the night was still permitting me to live some more beautiful moments.We both were awake like nocturnal animals who wait for every night to live best part of  their life. Suddenly i felt a little pain on my wrist and was shocked because she was still holding my wrist tightly and her nails was gushing deep into my skin and giving me sweet pain. She was completely unaware and was busy in her own world which was trying to drag her once again into the dark world of frustration and stress which was hard to resist but i didn't want to see her like this and want to make her feel good and comfortable with me.
Finally i moved my arm to realise her that ma'am you art still holding my arm, she realised and then  released her hold onto my arms. i found a beautiful impression on my wrist with four big semicircular lines well defining the smoothness of her well shaped nails and sharp curves of her nailshaper  but soon the scars was started itching, she looked at me with her amazing eyes and felt sorry without uttering a single word.  She again  start feeling depressed because of her present situation and this time i show some courage and hold her hand tightly and locked it up with my fingers she tried to pull it back but within few seconds she just left the control on her palm and allowed me to hold it properly, i told her not to worry, we would find some solution for this problem. She was worried and was badly tortured by the both side, their parents and her boyfriend who was still making excuse to delay the marriage and even didn't want to  listen her about this topic.I asked ma'am that did  she ever went to his home since they were in relationship, she told me that he use to come her home and everyone  treated him like their own family member but she never went to his home and he was also never invited her for any reason. I just kept my eyes shut for few seconds and then woke up with a solution. "ma'am i have a solution for your problem" she looked at me and her posture shows the intensity of knowing the solution of her problem which she was facing since last few years which is now seems as a decade. I told her to visit his home without giving him any hint or information, this will clear all the doubts and also she would able to know that whether they know her or not. She kept mum for some time then turned her head and start looking outside but this time her eyes was overloaded with tears and finally some of them which were very fortunate finally rolled out on her soft and smooth skin and ending up at chin, she tries to pull her hand to wipe her tears but i rejected her initial tries and wiped her tear with my own hand. To break the intense atmosphere i cracked a third graded joke and told her to come near to me and close her eyes, "i have a surprise for you" she smiled and closed her eyes, i continued the plan and took out the big chocolate that i bought for her and then told her to open her eyes. She became very happy and told me to ask anything from her. I got a golden chance and i again told her to close her eyes and she did the same, i went very near to her, the intensity of her perfume became ten thousand times, even i can hear her loud and smooth breathe, her hair was kissing my face and spreading beautiful smell all around me, i came back on my seat and took a deep breath, my heart was pumping like a bullet gun and then suddenly i felt the fall in temperature, This is the first time i had seen her from such a close distance, she was more beautiful than i imagined
, before i came out from that moment She exclaimed " hey am i allowed to open my eyes?" i told her yes ma'am you can, she looked all around her seat and mine too and then made a unnatural expression, "so why you told me to close my eyes" i replied her" ma'am actually i was busy in watching you, she laughed and closed her eyes once again and told me this is last time i am closing my eyes, i went very closer to her and now we both can feel the love in the air.

CHAPTER 12: THE JOURNEY

In the starting i was also feeling little awkward but we both were terrified for a common problem and the problem was the bus route is through our college gate and we both crossed our finger for not getting any familiar face for the rest of the journey, finally our bus crossed the college gate and no one boarded from that place and we took a deep breath of relief.
Still she was looking outside the window, then i put my hand inside the bag and grabbed a rose among the three and took it out, then cleared my throat and called her, my hand was shaking, and i was sweating though wind was directly punching on my face coming from the window, her hair was tightly clipped by a black colour clutcher which is also not able to hold it completely so some of them were dancing and some of them are trying to touch my face and the intense smell of her perfume was exploding all around me mixed with air which is directly hitting my nostrils and increasing my heart beat. i called her again"ma'am?" she turned her face swiftly and tug the dancing part of her hair behind her ears "YES", i said" i have something for you and moved my hand with that lucky rose in her direction, she took the rose and smiled back, i saw her eyes with black eyeliner perfectly circled around her eyes giving it a wonderful shape of sea shells, and her black eyes with large eyelashes it was amazing.
It was already 7:00 and we both were sitting beside each other quietly and trying to be as stiff as we could so that we both can avoid the ups and downs of the road and must not touch each other. She was keep looking outside and finally i decided not to end up this  journey like this and suddenly our bus was jumped on the speed breaker and  the next moment i was partially on her, feeling so awkward(but not at all), i just grabbed the seat handle and come back to own position, she saw me fighting with this stupid problem and finally broke her silence and came little closer to me and told me its OK be comfortable and then took out her mobile phone from her purse, then the second phase of my plan started, i told her that i have made something for you, i took out my mobile phone and connected it with the earplugs and we shared it, i had made a play list of all the beautiful and romantic songs mixed with both new and old song, now the situation was, outside the bus it was completely dark like even night granting me permission to live the moment ahead and all the people were also busy and enjoying the journey but mine was the fabulous one. After few moment my hard work paying the fruitful result when we both went into a deep thought with the song and the blowing wind also helps us to feel the love in the air, i looked at her and was keep looking her and imagining each song with her and also smiling, she saw me doing this from the corner of her eyes and felt little embarrassed, sometime she was biting her nails, sometime touching the  petals of that rose wit her finger or sometime rubbing it on her cheek and anyone could guess that she was feeling nervous but she was also enjoying that moment, she turned into my direction and asked  me "what happen? why are you looking at me like this?"
i replied" sorry ma'am it's not me it's you who looking amazing and fabulous that i can't stop my eye watching you without a single blink, and i am totally helpless," she smiled and also tried to look deep inside me but not more than 10 second and turned into pink. Suddenly some branches of  tree tilted toward the road were rubbed against the bus and was approaching to our window seat, to protect herself  from it instead of closing the window she jumped back, that time i understood the law of karma, and i really want to repeat my deeds once again. 😅😅
suddenly our bus halted for next half an hour for the dinner and refreshment of the passengers, i took out my ear plug and asked her that whether she need anything from outside, she told me no and also told me not to go outside because she brought something for me, i was completely surprised when i found a big lunch box inside her bag and was very curious  to know the content, she handover the complete box to me with a spoon, i opened the box it was filled with Chicken Biryani made by her only, without looking at her i was just put a overfilled spoon inside my mouth, it was damn tasty, she was watching me and cackled in totally odd way, i was shocked and was amazed too after watching her little closer than earlier, she was very beautiful and laugh like a small child, may be this all seems so amazing because i was in love at that time. Then we had our dinner and i went outside to bring bottle of water, she told me to bring some toffees so that it would help her awake and i was also surprised and happy too because i had already fixed my plan to awake her till the dawn. My kidney was bursting at that time so bringing water bottle was just an excuse to go  outside and pee, when i came back she was talking with someone and was very tensed, it took me some time to understood that she was talking with her mother and they both were again arguing on the same topic , her eyes was again filled with tears, suddenly she saw me next to her and watching her every movement, she hung up the call and then start behaving like nothing had happened, i passed the left part of my earplug and played a recording that i had done for her, basically it was a song that i recorded for her of course part of my planning, she laughed and appreciated me
our bus was ready to depart and all the passenger were ready to go for a long and deep nap but our situation was different, suddenly the driver has switched off the light and lit a wonderful blue and dim light that creating a romantic atmosphere and still i don't know how he got to know about all this.
She was looking outside the window and still was sad, i pull the second rose from my bag with a gift wrapped inside it, i called ma'am and given it to her, she was surprised and open the gift, it was wonderful card that i have made for her, she liked it so much then she open the card and read it with the help of street light that was peeping inside the bus through the window while our bus was running on the national highway.
I was busy in watching her expressions and when she had finished by that she thanked me and we both again became silent and the only thing that was filling that silence was the ear plug creating a wonderful moment, the time was 2:33 and  we both were still busy in our own imagination but the difference was i was looking at her continuously and she already told me a thousand times not to look at her like that. Finally the moment came" Ma'am i want to say something", she replied" haan bolo",
i pulled the second rose from the bag and held her hand softly, she was shocked as well as surprised i kneel down in that small space though it was very congested but i was somewhere else at that time,
"MA'AM  I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH TIME THAT WE WILL SHARE WITH EACH OTHER BUT I JUST WANT TO EXTEND IT FOREVER, I LOVE YOU."

CHAPTER 11:- DREAM COME TRUE

Finally i was ready to add one of the best and amazing page to my life and was excited like i was going to get something that was even more important than riding my first bike or playing my first video game on my own personal computer, at that time i understood a different power that was attracting me toward itself and realised that sometime we are totally out of control and the situation was handling our every movement perhaps it's wrong.I checked my to do list and matched all the things that i should carry for the entire vacation and put a correct  mark over it with my red pen, i learnt this skill of writing things down on a paper from my roommate Bal Krishna who used to do that  before going for any journey even market, sometimes this is too much.

i checked my backpack and it was all OK, then i called ma'am but she told me that she is busy right now so would call me a bit later but she forget, i had my lunch, including two pieces of bread and with spreads jam in between that and a packet of cookies, though my tummy was not full but this time my mind and the excitement was more dominant on it and i found a very big secret of life that this only happens when you are truly dedicated for something to be happened, why we are not getting this feeling for our books and results?

Our bus was scheduled at 6:30 in the evening and the time was 5:30, i left my room with my backpack with the gifts, plan and the whole hostel was wishing me luck with its quiet and calm atmosphere, i locked my room and finishes the last lap of some game to accomplish the mission by achieving  the goal and closing the hostel gate, i handover the key of hostel to the guard in the nearby guard office and then came outside the college where i hired an auto rickshaw for the  bus stand, as soon as i reached to the bus stand i got a call from ma'am and i rejected the call and the first part of my plan was already had been started. She called me 5 times but i rejected the call, she sent me a message, "Where are you ? call me ASAP." i told the rickshaw driver to take me to the market near the flower shop, where i bought 3 red roses and a big dairy milk chocolate, i know what you guys are imagining right now,i was also planned the same but i thing its too wild for the first date😃.

Now the time was 6:15 and i already got  7 missed call from her, now i could sense her heart beat don't be confused it's not for me but for the bus because in India this is common behaviour that if you missed to take bus or may be left at some station while travelling they might think that you will never able to reach your home again and you will meet in heaven or hell and this was the last train or bus to your destination.

I picked up the call and according to the plan i told madam that "ma'am i am very sorry because of some important work, i left the college early in the afternoon with one of my junior that's why i called you in the afternoon but you were busy, she told me that" i know you are kidding, now come soon the bus is about to leave", i again replied her" no i am not kidding ma'am i left the college  and half of the journey is already covered, sorry i tried to tell you but you were busy." She hung up the call and messaged me its OK but do inform me before taking any step and this is the last time, never repeat it again, bye."At 6:30 she again called me to confirm that whether i was kidding or it's true, at that time i was standing just behind the bus so that i could catch it as soon as it start to move and also for the safer side because if i missed the bus unfortunately, i would never forgive myself.

i was watching her continuously in the rear view mirror of the bus, she was looking outside and was full of anger and fury, i picked up the call, she asked me once again" where are you tell me?" i told her that " i already told you ma'am, and i am really sorry." She finally hung up the call and put it inside her purse. The bus started to move and it was full of local people and i entered into the bus our seat was 15 and 16, i saw her in black suit with a beautiful small bindi in between her eyebrows and glowing lip balm around her lips which was keeping it wet and glossy, but the eyebrow was little stressed and  supporting her anger and the anxiety on her face, she was continuously looking outside the window.

I managed to get closer toward her and the intensity of her perfume was also driving me crazy and attracting me like i didn't want to waste my single moment alone, i went behind my seat and then suddenly jumped in and took my seat, for the few second she was not able to understand what had happened but when she found me by her side her eyebrows again went back on it's own position and her face was filled with a huge smile and pale yellow face turned into pinkish red. But still she was ignoring the eye contact and i was busy in watching her eyes and her face, she told me that you can put down your bag, then i realised that i was still holding my bag like i am holding my baby and was protecting it from everyone, actually it was correct for some time because i was protecting my roses inside the bag which was going to play the most important role today.

i tried to sit straight so that my arm must not touches her arm so to made her feel comfortable then first time she looked at me and told me, it's ok you can sit comfortably and again start looking outside the bus, i smiled and felt the sweating palms and feet the very first time outside the examination hall but still it was hard to believe that i was with her after making lots o excuses at my home, to my friend , hostel warden, and many more. She was also excited as i could perceive by her facial expression but still she was ignoring me or may be feeling little awkward with her student.Now i was ready to unfold my plans and making it one of the best moment for my life.

CHAPTER 10:- I MADE IT

It is a very critical issue and one of the major problem of declining the graph of our  overall grades  when our vacation was just starting after our semester exam, the night before the last exam everyone was was busy in booking tickets for train, buses, auto and many more even localities were also excited don't know why and it is still a mystery for me. Like everyone i was also excited but there was not only one reason for my excitement but two, one i was going to my sweet home, and second obviously with the person which was just like a dream for me at that time.

nc-12 my hostel

At the time of my last paper i was keep imagining all those those thing and was smiling  and this time question paper was also seems to be over friendly to me and like me every other students was trying to fill that answer sheet like this was the last fight for their freedom and after that we will be free for eternity. But there is a very big difference between me and them, they were going early might be on that day or the next day but mine was a way long, It was not the main problem that i had to wait for four  more days but to stay in the hostel  which was very big, there was 250 rooms and each room was occupied by 3 students means around 750 students and it clearly shows the traffic and noise of the hostel but it was going to turn into a haunted house within 2 days and i have to live  in that big hostel all alone, it had lots of tragic and mind made horror stories told by my friend who was a big jerk but it was real that 2 years ago a student hung himself for getting poor marks in his exam and that room was still locked, the room no was 56 which was just above our room that is 27, this was one of the biggest problem that was killing me from inside and the second was warden of our hostel already told me that from tomorrow mess was going to close and it was reopen after our vacation so no food will be available for 3 days according to my schedule. Some point of time i was ready to change my mind and drop this plan to go with ma'am but i made my self calm and imagined all those beautiful moments and start making a plan to make this journey unique and different.
She called me in the night on the next day of my exam and i was alone in the room at that time because my friends already left and half of the people already reached their homes, rest of them are busy in packing and getting confirmation about their status of booked tickets. i talked with her whole night because i didn't want to miss this chance and the second was to cope up with the fear of being alone in the entire hostel, it was 5:20 in the morning when i hung up the call and felt asleep and when i woke up i found the whole hostel was locked and some of the people are dragging their trolleys towards the exit door and the sound was echoing all over the hostel and making me feel so different, then i looked at my mobile and found that it was quarter passed 11 then i again got a call from my ma'am and she was enquired me about my breakfast and lunch, i told her the situation then she given me some ideas to fill my belly, i made Maggie and had some then i took a clean sheet of paper and started working out for the trip.
i made a wonderful plan for the trip which is filled with everything that i wanted to tell her from my side and a perfect plan full of excitement and wonderful experience.I am explaining my plan but don't try to copy it, it is a copyright of my own, just kidding it is just a frame work of some stupid ideas to attract her.
my planning was containing three step,

first- every human being has a tendency that they take everything for granted, so first make them feel          that it is hard to get what they want then let them feel it and then give them the thing that they              want, it doubles their excitement and happiness.

Second- some plan which contain some daily work but with different style because we can't ignore                    our daily routine like eating, drinking, sleeping.
               of coarse the surprise to surprise her, may be you can buy or may be you can made with                       your hand, making with hand is more preferable, because it helps to make them feel unique                 and also make them feel more important that you have done something for her and spent                      your quality time. When you have created the spell all around her then come to the thing                     that you want to confess.

third- the dessert which contain some sentimental moments which will make them feel like you are                also feeling bad but it is totally based on her reaction for the second part.

So to accomplish it i went to the market and buy some important stuffs related to my art and craft, a big packet of Maggi to deal with my stomach for the rest of the days and some snacks and came back.At the night when i got the phone call from ma'am my plan first plan started, to generate curiosity within her for the trip and told her that i am doing something unique for her these days, she asked me a thousand times but i continued the suspense and given my best effort to make a beautiful gift for her and also bought a bottle of new perfume to smell good and awesome. i made myself too busy in all those things that i hadn't realised that i was all alone in the hostel but ma'am also cared for me a lot, every day she called me and enquire about my lunch, dinner ,breakfast but much of the time we use to talk from dinner to breakfast so that i could reduce her anxiety and effort of calling me again!!
One night i was felt asleep early and ma'am was still on the other side of the phone and suddenly someone knocked the door and it was like he bitten the door so hard like he want to break the door, i opened the door the time was 5:30 in the morning and the warden was standing their with his backpack and asked me when are you leaving because i have to submit the leave form of every student and i am also leaving today, i was full of anger because of his heroic entry,i told him" sir you can knock the door more gently, i am not deaf and i am not going anywhere," then he felt sorry for that and asked politely to submit my leave application, i went inside and handover the leave application to him which was completely blank leaving my signature at the last and told him to fill the rest of the details, he took it and told me to leave by tomorrow because they gonna lock the main gate and i have to live outside the college, but thanks to god the day came when the most interesting journey was waiting for me, this evening yes, i then head on my earplugs and found that she was sleeping and taking soft and slow breath which was very peaceful and silent. i hung up the call without making much noise and again start dreaming for the trip and felt asleep.

CHAPTER-9: THE MOST AWAITED MOMENT..

my unit test result came and i got 23 out of 25 marks and was very happy though many geek students was also there who were badly obsessed with the marks and in case if they got one or two marks less than the topper they were ready to roam all over the day behind that faculty member and some time they call for CBI probe. While distributing the test result ma'am called me and handover me my answer sheet and asked me to go through right there, i just flipped the pages which was full of unknown language though it was written by me and the flow of answer was like some kind of movie very calm and good in the beginning but as we approach to the last it become so tragic that we only watch action.
Ma'am had ignored my all small mistakes and just circled it with her red pen but hadn't deducted a single marks for that, suddenly she asked me" is everything is all right, have you counted your marks?" , i smiled back and told her that "no need to do that because i know someone is taking care of my exam more than me", she given me a strange look by the corner of her eyes and then again start correcting the copy of some  sick people who were standing there and looking helplessly to her.

Our semester exam schedule was out and we all joined the seekers group who were a group of people who didn't even know the name of the subject but as soon the get news of semester exam they start searching for previous year question paper, important questions which was marked by the faculty while delivering their lecture, some time they went library (only once a year) one month before exam and tear out the important pages from the book and steal the best copy among the geek students and also return after exam from whom who were punctual and maintain their notes like they gonna awarded for her work and their copy would get the highest position in the national museum.
our classes were off for the preparation of the semester exam and i miss her so  much so i used to make some doubts in her subject and went to her for clarifying my doubts and to see her in different beautiful outlooks and smell her odor.
Our semester exam had been started and it passed like wind, so quickly that everybody started  packing their bags for the semester brake, i also planned a lot of things this time like every time, though it was very hard because i would see her after one complete month but also happy because i was going to meet with my family and friends at home.
On the night before my last exam of that semester Ma'am asked about my plan for semester brake and the date when i was leaving the college, i told her that i was leaving the college by 20th of this month, she told me that she is also going to Bhubneswar but not on 23 means three day after my scheduled time, hen she asked me would you like to go with me, i couldn't believe my ears that i got a wonderful chance to be with her and this time out of college and of course not like student and teacher, so without thinking for a single second i told her "My pleasure" she started laughing and then told me that the journey is by bus and in the night, i was feeling like who the hell this lucky guy who made my day, and assured ma'am that i would go, did not matter by  bus or train or in the day or night.
After hanging up the call i realized that i have already told my friends that i will join them, then i planned to tell them a wonderful excuse and was started to planning this trip to make it a one of the best time for her as well as me i planned so many things and this was my unofficial meeting so i was damn excited but i was also forgetting something the problem which was killing me from inside.