still she was waiting for the gift curiously, closed eyes and the delusive smile making me feel so different and lunatic. I held my breath and rush toward her once again, my eyes was more busy in watching her face and getting attracted toward her simplicity. All the Bollywood movies start roaming around my wits, and it is true that i was keep trying to ignore the Hollywood movies😃. And before she open her eyes i touched her warm and soft cheek with my lips,
while doing that i was totally out of this universe, my heart was totally controlling my brain and it was pumping like trillions litres of blood at a time. When i came back in the real world i opened my eyes and saw that she was amazed and nervous too and again looking out of the window and when she was kept mum for more than five minutes i was started feeling very bad and felt very sorry for this.
After 10 minutes when she saw me in such a confused and guilt condition she held my hand and told me " its ok Navin,don't feel bad about it, i know your love is pure and childish too". Still my head was full of different thoughts, i was feeling damn bad when i realised that what i have done. Then she came very near to me and kissed on my cheek and told me that i like you too and i never carry any debt. I felt better and felt relaxed because i didn't want to hurt her or loose this beautiful relation. Then we talked for the next couple of minutes and the pole star was smiling and bidding me goodbye with a spark on its face. When i checked my watch it was 4:30 in the morning and we are about to reach our destination.
while doing that i was totally out of this universe, my heart was totally controlling my brain and it was pumping like trillions litres of blood at a time. When i came back in the real world i opened my eyes and saw that she was amazed and nervous too and again looking out of the window and when she was kept mum for more than five minutes i was started feeling very bad and felt very sorry for this.
After 10 minutes when she saw me in such a confused and guilt condition she held my hand and told me " its ok Navin,don't feel bad about it, i know your love is pure and childish too". Still my head was full of different thoughts, i was feeling damn bad when i realised that what i have done. Then she came very near to me and kissed on my cheek and told me that i like you too and i never carry any debt. I felt better and felt relaxed because i didn't want to hurt her or loose this beautiful relation. Then we talked for the next couple of minutes and the pole star was smiling and bidding me goodbye with a spark on its face. When i checked my watch it was 4:30 in the morning and we are about to reach our destination.
Finally we got down at Bhubneswar bus stand. I requested her to go for a walk to explore the cold and moist weather and also to spent some more time with her that day. She agreed and we start walking toward ram mandir but the best part was holding her hand and walking by her side which makes me feel so damn good and different. It was like completing one of the wish from my wish box. We both were talking, laughing and keep walking on that foggy filled road, suddenly i came across a tea stall, i brought two cups of tea and we had it together. Such an awesome feeling...
we had it together with an unknown feeling touching our heart and soothing to our eyes, the most wonderful feeling that giving rain to the thirsty barren piece of land looking for the way of survival.
With every sip of tea we looked at each other and smile, sometime it continues for a longer time and sometime it ends with an unknown expression coming out with deep breathe and inhaling the fresh air with new life and moments, it was just like living life in every moments. I was wondering of having some amazing and supernatural power to stop that every moments.
But the time was forcing its needle to swap the moments of being together to loneliness and finally her mobile phone rang and her boyfriend was coming to pick her up from bus stand, i felt bad not because her boyfriend was coming but about the unknown hatred that she was carrying inside her heart way long and still compelled to sit behind him on his bike, why she is so calm if she is able to bring calamity, why she was so damn sad if she can start her life anytime anywhere, why the boundation of the relations are so tight that it binds our tongue too to ask for the justice.
Finally we went back to the same place where the bus dropped us and within 10 minutes she got one more call from him about her current location, she told me to go to railway station because i was also getting late, my train was at 6 in the morning "janstabdi" though every train in India has a custom of getting late but this train is always on time, what a fucking coincidence and there is nothing to amaze, it always happens whenever you expect something good. i caught an auto for railway station but after few second i got down and told the auto driver that i forgot my luggage at the bus stand and stand behind the car and was looking at her. A bike came with red in colour and a tall guy wearing a helmet came near to her and then she sat behind him on the bike and then she went with him. i was watching her till she disappear in the morning fog with that guy. I was feeling bad about the time when we chose our own way not because we want however life changes its colour but i forgotten that i am already late for the train and when i reached the railway station i saw the cross sign on the last bogie of my train bidding me good bye and its two red light giving me wicked smile and teasing me. I was feeling bad because i missed my train and happy because i was returning with tons of wonderful memories. I went to the enquiry office and asked for some other train, they told me that there is one super fast train ready to depart from station no 5, i ran with my bag and boarded the train without any second thought and when i realised that i had done a huge mistake because i forget to withdraw money from ATM and i was running out of money.
Suddenly i saw a man in black jacket who seems like a ghost to me on that day coming directly in my direction, he came very near to me but didn't ask for ticket, i exhaled my discomfort with that mouth full of breathe and relaxed, then i took out my personal diary and newspaper. I spread the news paper on the floor and start reading my personal diary. Like me some other people was also present with me at that time but the difference was they had ticket but i didn't have any tickets not even general class ticket and i was in super-fast without money, wow what a surprise!! I was blaming myself for everything but whenever my mind try to blame her equally my heart wins every time.
Suddenly i found him near to me checking the tickets, i closed my eyes and prayed to god "please help me god, i will never lie to anyone for next 1 month" He asked the ticket to the boy next to me, he took out his ticket and it was in waiting list, then he asked for the second one, again it was waiting then he came to me and asked me "is your ticket under waiting list? I nodded my head in affirmation and he left me without even looking at my ticket, oh god!!you really exist, thanks a trillion. i looked at everyone and without uttering any word and thanked them for helping me unknowingly.
Suddenly i found that i was crossing the cuttack station where she live, I called her but the call didn't get connect and it crossed like the time but left the beautiful memories.
I reached my home very late with my small backpack and a bag full of memories that touches my heart and giving me amazing feeling.
we had it together with an unknown feeling touching our heart and soothing to our eyes, the most wonderful feeling that giving rain to the thirsty barren piece of land looking for the way of survival.
With every sip of tea we looked at each other and smile, sometime it continues for a longer time and sometime it ends with an unknown expression coming out with deep breathe and inhaling the fresh air with new life and moments, it was just like living life in every moments. I was wondering of having some amazing and supernatural power to stop that every moments.
But the time was forcing its needle to swap the moments of being together to loneliness and finally her mobile phone rang and her boyfriend was coming to pick her up from bus stand, i felt bad not because her boyfriend was coming but about the unknown hatred that she was carrying inside her heart way long and still compelled to sit behind him on his bike, why she is so calm if she is able to bring calamity, why she was so damn sad if she can start her life anytime anywhere, why the boundation of the relations are so tight that it binds our tongue too to ask for the justice.
Finally we went back to the same place where the bus dropped us and within 10 minutes she got one more call from him about her current location, she told me to go to railway station because i was also getting late, my train was at 6 in the morning "janstabdi" though every train in India has a custom of getting late but this train is always on time, what a fucking coincidence and there is nothing to amaze, it always happens whenever you expect something good. i caught an auto for railway station but after few second i got down and told the auto driver that i forgot my luggage at the bus stand and stand behind the car and was looking at her. A bike came with red in colour and a tall guy wearing a helmet came near to her and then she sat behind him on the bike and then she went with him. i was watching her till she disappear in the morning fog with that guy. I was feeling bad about the time when we chose our own way not because we want however life changes its colour but i forgotten that i am already late for the train and when i reached the railway station i saw the cross sign on the last bogie of my train bidding me good bye and its two red light giving me wicked smile and teasing me. I was feeling bad because i missed my train and happy because i was returning with tons of wonderful memories. I went to the enquiry office and asked for some other train, they told me that there is one super fast train ready to depart from station no 5, i ran with my bag and boarded the train without any second thought and when i realised that i had done a huge mistake because i forget to withdraw money from ATM and i was running out of money.
Suddenly i saw a man in black jacket who seems like a ghost to me on that day coming directly in my direction, he came very near to me but didn't ask for ticket, i exhaled my discomfort with that mouth full of breathe and relaxed, then i took out my personal diary and newspaper. I spread the news paper on the floor and start reading my personal diary. Like me some other people was also present with me at that time but the difference was they had ticket but i didn't have any tickets not even general class ticket and i was in super-fast without money, wow what a surprise!! I was blaming myself for everything but whenever my mind try to blame her equally my heart wins every time.
Suddenly i found him near to me checking the tickets, i closed my eyes and prayed to god "please help me god, i will never lie to anyone for next 1 month" He asked the ticket to the boy next to me, he took out his ticket and it was in waiting list, then he asked for the second one, again it was waiting then he came to me and asked me "is your ticket under waiting list? I nodded my head in affirmation and he left me without even looking at my ticket, oh god!!you really exist, thanks a trillion. i looked at everyone and without uttering any word and thanked them for helping me unknowingly.
Suddenly i found that i was crossing the cuttack station where she live, I called her but the call didn't get connect and it crossed like the time but left the beautiful memories.
I reached my home very late with my small backpack and a bag full of memories that touches my heart and giving me amazing feeling.
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