THE UNTOLD TOUCH

Have you ever felt a relation which is too short to be kept and so intense to forgot...yes there is some relation which you cant define  not  because it is only complex but time will permit  you some of the beautiful moments to live for short time and yes there is some beautiful memories that bring a huge smile on your face, it is so pure that will touches your heart and soul.It will come to you at perfect time and perfect moments when you truly need it. How it impacted my life i  don't know but it's so beautiful that while writing it my fingers are not stopping for a while and my face is carrying a soft touch of happiness and mind has no greed of capturing that perfect thing.
i was smiling because after a prolonged pause our plan got the real existence out of our whats-app group. We are five in our group POO, CHIN, SAM, D and ME. We are the most fascinated group crazy for  travelling and cover the whole world with our short legs. We planned for  the top hills of India  and the most spiritual place in India(north) called the heaven because of the beauty of the nature. I heard from many people about the air of jammu and Kashmir

that there is something in that air which attracts not only people but nations and still war is going on to own this beautiful place and yes nothing to amaze because we human being are the most cumbersome species full of greed and mad for beauty. I rose their heart beat when i  boarded  the train 10 minutes before departure of the train from NDLS station. Saw my group with my excited eyes and beating heart holding all the new pictures which is going to become real once again with my small selfie addicted group.
POO came near to me and hugged me tightly, I was very happy  after meeting with my friends, everyone was giving me strange look, specially SAM and CHIN but D was still ignoring me, i think she was busy in some other world full of ignorance but yes it was all for me because in previous trip we had some small fight which we never figured them out.

I tried to tease her for being quiet and sad but she  didn't even look at me and changed her place. She is a short heighten girl having normal colour complexion, though she is from one of the famous state of  India which is reflected by her Bihari tone for which she is proud of, She is the second older family member among her 5 sibling.Few months ago her whole  family members was going through a great trauma which breaks everything in her family, her father was badly ill because of the infection of  the wound near the toe and it become so vulnerable  that weaken his body and reaches his brain and damages the nervous system, he lost his consciousness and control on his body and none of the  medicine was working on him, the whole family was fighting with it unitedly and defeated it, i cannot express the situation from which she had gone through. Every day and night was bringing a new problems in her life but they never lost their hope and now the situation is far better, her father  is  recovering and everything is getting back to normal. She had never shown her situation to anyone, i tried to be  with her during this time and called her daily to get the update but she got  irritated by my calls so she  started ignoring my call and  i was totally aware of her problem and annoying behavior. One day she  called me and  was crying because of the worst condition and not getting control over the problem they are facing, her father shifted to too many hospitals, the whole family was badly affected by every means, i was coming from my college and received the call, after listening her shivering, frightened and disturbed tone i planned to visit her but she stopped me and told me to wait for some time. She didn't called me after that day.
When i saw  her eyes it was little tired and hungry for some change which she haven't senses so long, i knew that she  was on this trip because she promised god that once her father will start recovering she will  come for thanksgiving to the supreme power whose  hope and trust exists all over the world and this time it is also present on those hills which was calling  us. I planned to enjoy and give best time to myself in understanding and solving some complicated questions meandering  all around my life specially for my sister who is also going through tough time.

When i saw her in the train i bounded one more  wish with my aim for this trip, to give her some best moments, so that she can feel better without expecting anything from anyone. We reached that place early in the morning and went to the  temple where we got hardly 1 minute for praying and tell him our whole wish, we came back, our stay was damn good  though little ups and downs are obvious in any  group but everything was amazing. We planned to  stay in one room though we booked for  two. POO and CHIN were settled on one bed and we three on another, though POO wants me  to sleep by her side but i ignored because CHIN was already there and he is little attracted towards her so i decided not  to disturb them and told D to clear space beside her and finally i slept beside her. It was 2 am in the night i was still looking at her face and wanted to touch her forehead gently and to make her feel more comfortable and loving after such a long and hard journey but i was afraid of people who will name this feeling something else but finally didn't care  for others and moved my palm gently on her forehead she was in deep sleep and dreaming, then i also went into deep sleep and when i woke up i hadn't found her on our billet she came back after brushing her teeth, i asked her for  her hand and hold it firmly with my heart and slept for some time. she was feeling strange and shy too,it was hardly 15 minutes after which i woke up and left the  cozy bed. I saw the wonderful smile and  unknown happiness on her face giving me satisfaction. I also brought a gift for her, it is basically a t shirt that i painted for her as a  birthday gift but feeling little awkward while giving her.

Then we moved according to our plan and while going that place we booked a cab which was 5 sitter and we all took our place, the journey was little long so everyone in the cab was sleeping, POO with CHIN, SAM with me in the front seat of the  cab and D in the back alone after playing lot of beautiful song in the speaker that i brought for making our journey full of memories. She teased  everyone with that speaker by playing next to our ears and after some time she again slept and her cap came in front of her head which cover her eyes and she was looking like a cute little child. In the beginning she was sleeping on the CHIN"S shoulder after sometime she slip behind CHIN and seat of the cab because he was busy in giving company to his friend cum attraction POO , i was smiling watching her sleeping like this and wanted to give her my shoulder. We reached  that cave and then returned back directly to the railway station. Our train was on the same day in the evening. We decide pizza as our dinner, i and D decided to go to domino  and bring the pizza for us. I was walking by her side holding her hand and taking care of her, we had wonderful time together for all those time and she confronted me and broke her silence and told me about all those tough time from which she had gone through,
while doing this her eyes was filled with tears but she handled it and  not let them roll on her cheeks.

we boarded the  train,our ticket was not confirmed it is in RAC so i insisted her to sit with me so that we can talk and i could give her some good moments. I settle down on our desired birth but POO wants to sit with me so  she  came and took the rest half  seat, i looked at D in anger and messaged  her to come and sit next to me, we start making different excuses to send POO because CHIN was also waiting  for her but she hadn't moved her ass an inch  so finally i decided to  take the other birth allotted to us, D came and  sit in front of me, i felt little good, we talked whole  night soon i found her eyes was filled with sleep and i felt like  i am forcing  her  to talk so i  got  up and taken other vacant place available on that train and slept comfortably.
We reached to Delhi in the morning 6 am, i was feeling sad because our trip was over but we had wonderful  memories with us. I came back to my friend's room and after such a hectic journey finally i slept for 5 hours continuously then i planned to  visit one of my friend live in Noida City Center and stayed there with my friend Tanmay. When i reached Noida i missed her once.
The next day D messaged me and we both planned to meet at logix , 5 pm in the evening,though it was my last day in Delhi, i reached at 4:30 pm and was waiting for her, we both planned for Kedarnath movie. She was near to me and we were enjoying the movie, while one of beautiful song was playing inside the theater NamoNamo Shankara, i hold her hand, she felt shy but she  allowed me to hold her hands and then we watched  the  whole movie and i captured her inside that song. Whenever i listened that song i felt her nearby me and i am taking care of her. After watching that movie we had our dinner together and every time i was keep telling her to freeze every moments so that it would never end but she smiled and told me to live every moment instead of counting.
After our dinner we both are standing outside the mall and ready  to bid bye to each other but i was still not ready to leave her like this, i wanted to spend some more time and asked her to stay with me the entire night, she felt different but she trusted me and was ready to be with me for the whole night though her roommate is  getting angry  on her for being so late, i felt very happy but soon i realized that  this  is not good for today and then we booked a cab. Now its time to go to  our own way , finally i hugged her tightly and kissed on her forehead and without looking back i sat inside the cab.
Cab took me directly to my room which is very far away from her hostel but our beautiful time still holding our feeling which makes us smile and feeling special for each other. I was very happy while  returning to my home after this journey because i lived it the way i wanted, holding life in every breathe and smile. Though we don't have any plan for next year but we certainly do because we are unstoppable.
And about D, she is one of the strongest girl who can handle any situation in her life, she  is  fast and so caring who will take care of her family, though she didn't need any care or help but every human being wanted to get loved, care and attention. So do i and you.

CHAPTER :- 14 ONE MORE STEP....

still she was waiting for the gift curiously, closed eyes and the delusive smile making me feel so different and lunatic. I held my breath and rush toward her once again, my eyes was more busy in watching her face and getting attracted toward her simplicity. All the Bollywood movies start roaming around my wits, and it is true that i was keep trying to ignore the Hollywood movies😃. And before she open her eyes i touched her warm and soft cheek with my lips,

while doing that i was totally out of this universe, my heart was totally controlling my brain and it was pumping like trillions litres of blood at a time. When i came back in the real world i opened my eyes and saw that she was amazed and nervous too and again looking out of the window and  when she was kept mum for more than five minutes i was started feeling very bad and felt very sorry for this.
After 10 minutes when she saw me in such a confused and guilt condition  she held my hand and told me " its ok Navin,don't feel bad about it, i know your love is pure and childish too". Still my head was full of different thoughts, i was feeling damn bad when i realised that what i have done. Then she came very near to me and kissed on my cheek and told me that i like you too and i never carry any debt. I felt better and felt relaxed because i didn't want to hurt her or loose this beautiful relation. Then we talked for the next couple of minutes and the pole star was smiling and bidding me goodbye with a spark on its face. When i checked my watch it was 4:30 in the morning and we are about to reach our destination.

Finally we got down at Bhubneswar bus stand. I requested her to go for a walk to explore the cold and moist weather and also to spent some more time with her that day. She agreed and we start walking toward ram mandir but the best part was  holding her hand and walking by her side which makes me feel so damn good and different. It was like completing one of the wish from my wish box. We both were talking, laughing and keep walking on that foggy filled road, suddenly i came across a tea stall, i brought two cups of tea and we had it together. Such an awesome feeling...
we had it together with an unknown feeling touching our heart and soothing to our eyes, the most wonderful feeling that giving rain to the thirsty barren piece of land looking for the way of survival.
With every sip of tea we looked at each other and smile, sometime it continues for a longer time and sometime it ends with an unknown expression coming out with deep breathe and inhaling the fresh air with new life and moments, it was just like living life in every moments. I was wondering of having some amazing and supernatural power to stop that every moments.
But the time was forcing its needle to swap the moments of being together to loneliness and finally her mobile phone rang and her boyfriend was coming to pick her up from bus stand, i felt bad not because her boyfriend was coming but about the unknown hatred that she was carrying inside her heart way long and still compelled to sit behind him on his bike, why she is so calm if she is able to bring calamity, why she was so damn sad if she can start her life anytime anywhere, why the boundation of the relations are so tight that it binds our tongue too to ask for the justice.

Finally we went back to the same place where the bus dropped us and within 10 minutes she got one more call from him about her current location, she told me to go to railway station because i was also getting late, my train was at 6 in the morning "janstabdi" though every train in India has a custom of getting late but this train is always on time, what a fucking coincidence and there is nothing to amaze, it always happens whenever you expect something good. i caught an auto for railway station but after few second i got down and told the auto driver that  i forgot my luggage at the bus stand and stand behind the car and was looking at her. A bike came with red in colour and a tall guy wearing a helmet came near to her and then she sat behind him on the bike and then she went with him. i was watching her till she disappear in the morning fog with that guy. I was feeling bad about the time when we chose our own way not because we want however life changes its colour but i forgotten that  i am already late for  the  train and  when i reached the railway  station i saw the cross sign on the last  bogie of my train bidding me good bye and its two red light giving me  wicked smile and teasing me. I was feeling bad because i missed my  train and happy because i was returning with tons of wonderful memories. I went to the enquiry office and asked for  some other train, they told me that there is one super fast train ready to depart from station  no 5, i ran with my bag and boarded the train without  any second thought and when i realised that i had done a huge mistake because i forget to withdraw money from ATM and  i was running out of money.

Suddenly i saw a man in black jacket who seems like a ghost to me on that day coming directly in my direction, he came very  near to me but didn't ask for ticket, i exhaled my discomfort with that mouth full of breathe and relaxed, then i took out my personal diary and newspaper. I spread the news paper on the floor and start  reading my personal diary. Like me some other people was also present with me at that time but the difference was they  had ticket but i didn't have any tickets not even general class ticket and i was in super-fast without money, wow what a surprise!! I was blaming myself for everything but whenever my mind try  to blame her equally my heart wins every time.
Suddenly i found him near to me checking the tickets, i closed my eyes and prayed to god "please help me god, i will never lie to anyone for next 1 month" He asked the ticket to the boy next to me, he took out his ticket and it  was in waiting list, then he asked for the second one, again it was waiting then he came to me and asked me "is your ticket under waiting list? I nodded my head in affirmation and he left me without  even looking at my ticket, oh god!!you really exist, thanks a trillion. i looked at everyone and without uttering any word and thanked them for helping me unknowingly.
Suddenly i found that  i was crossing the cuttack  station where she  live, I called her but the call didn't get connect and  it crossed like the time but left the beautiful memories.
I reached my home very late with my small backpack and a bag full of  memories that touches my heart and giving me amazing feeling.